Robert F. Kennedy Jr. admitted to having “intense urges” and being a slave to “powerful demons” when it came to sex, according to newly discovered exclusive information from his diaries.
“I feel out of control,” the former presidential candidate wrote in his secret diary, reviewed by The Washington Post, on May 3, 1999, about being invited to a woman's apartment for a tryst.
“But if I don't cause trouble, I feel a bit dissatisfied… Sometimes I wonder why God gave me such a powerful demon.” The diary doesn't make it clear whether he ultimately met the woman.
At the time, Kennedy was married to his second wife, Mary Richardson Kennedy, who committed suicide in 2012. He is now married to Hollywood actress Cheryl Hines, but is still dealing with the heartbreak after it was reported he engaged in a nine-month sexting relationship with journalist Olivia Nuzzi, 31.
Nuzzi, a White House correspondent for New York magazine, was placed on administrative leave last week after her relationship with Kennedy, 70, was revealed. The star political reporter, who wrote a profile of the political scion last year, maintains that the relationship between the two was not physical.
The Washington Post first published the secret diary in 2013, a year after Mary's suicide.
In the book, one of three seen by The Washington Post, Kennedy wrote that while he struggled with his own “demons of greed,” he kept track of more than two dozen conquests in the back of a thick book covered in stickers from environmental movements around the world.
In an examination of the diary this week, The Washington Post found signs of growing resentment toward his wife, with whom he was in the midst of a bitter divorce before his death in 2012.
“She doesn't want me in bed and never has sex,” he wrote of the mother of four of his six children on May 7, 1999, five years after their marriage. “She barely tells me anything except her schedule and the usual laundry list of complaints.”
Other diary entries show Mary becoming furious with him, at one point confronting him about the schedule of their children's after-school activities. “Mary is out of control,” he wrote on June 25, 1999. “She refuses to do any fun things with me.”
A week later, on July 2, he wrote, “Mary was on a rampage. She kicked me out of the house, made a scene in front of Bobby, called the police and lied. I could tell she really wanted to attack me.”
The man he is referring to is Bobby Kennedy III, his son with his first wife, Emily Black, who is now married to Amaryllis Fox, a former CIA officer who ran Kennedy's presidential campaign.
According to the diary, Kennedy, an environmental lawyer and anti-vaccination activist, spent much of the year traveling around the world giving speeches about protecting the environment.
He recorded meetings with celebrities, including Warren Beatty, Lauren Hutton, and his friend Glenn Close, and in a 2000 diary entry he wrote that he planned to give 55 paid speaking engagements, with the money he hoped to use to pay off some of his debts.
In another entry, Kennedy and Richardson met in Hawaii in February 1999 while he was giving a speech. “We spent our honeymoon weekend together at the Halukalani Hotel in Waikiki,” he writes about the posh waterfront venue.
While waiting for his wife to fly in from New York, Kennedy and a friend headed to the Outrigger Canoe Club and paddled past the Royal Hawaiian Hotel, where his parents honeymooned in 1950.
“John [the friend] “He's managed to pick up two very cute girls,” he wrote. “It never ceases to amaze me. His head is shaped like a football and his ears are like blimp wings. But he… always succeeds. He calls it a hobby.”
The diary is also interspersed with recollections of Alcoholics Anonymous meetings (Kennedy was a former heroin addict) and meals with celebrities and other famous people.
According to the diary, in February, Kennedy had dinner at the home of Larry David and Laurie David, where Larry was scheduled to premiere his comedy series “Curb Your Enthusiasm,” starring Hines, in October of that year.
While still married to Richardson, Kennedy began dating Hollywood stars.
“I'm crazy about these guys and Julia Dreyfuss, who was there,” he wrote, adding that Billy Crystal and other “movie heavyweights” were also in attendance.
“Lunch with Rob Reiner…briefly met Bruce Willis and Michelle Pfeiffer…struck by how slim and small Willis is,” he wrote in another entry.
“In LA, I always tried to stay out of trouble,” Kennedy said after recounting his day in Los Angeles.
He was in California for a conference of the National Resources Defense Council, a nonprofit organization whose president and attorney is Mr. Kennedy.
Kennedy wrote about going to the NRDC offices and “having a brief chat with the staff” and having lunch at the Bel-Air Hotel with Hollywood powerhouse lawyer Skip Brittenham and “his trophy wife, Heather.”
Heather Thomas is a philanthropist and former actress best known for her role in the 1980s TV series “The Fall Guy.”
NRDC launched a campaign in April urging Kennedy to drop out of the presidential race.
“As current and former executives and directors of the NRDC Action Fund, and former colleagues of Robert F. Kennedy Jr., we have one message for him: Respect the Earth and drop out.” One of the ads reads: Kennedy suspended his campaign in August but has since endorsed Donald Trump for president.
There were even more stars around him when, in April 1999, he spoke at a dinner honoring Yvon Chouinard, the environmental activist and founder of the clothing company Patagonia.
Kennedy was surrounded by Hutton, philanthropist Dennis Rich, journalist Tom Brokaw, Crystal and actor Harrison Ford at the event.
“God gave me a great speech, then Harrison Ford introduced me and said he would raise money for me if I would run for Senate,” Kennedy wrote.
Ford himself “A lifelong Democrat.”
Representatives for Ford and Kennedy did not respond to requests for comment Wednesday.
