Reflections on a Tumultuous Youth

The early 90s were quite a peculiar time to be a troubled teenager. After spending years in a seemingly wonderful orphanage, I found myself released by the New York State Court at 16. I mean, returning to a home where mothers acted more like punitive nurses than caring parents? No, thanks.

But, to be honest, this new freedom was tough. Upon dropping out of high school, I ended up in a welfare apartment with a roommate who dealt drugs. Nighttime would bring its own surprises; I’d wake up to use the bathroom and, as I flicked the light on, a couple of cockroaches would scurry down the wall. In the kitchen, it was even worse—turning on the light would reveal a whole handful just waiting to greet me.

The night feels like it’s fading. A new day is coming. I guess we should cast aside the works of darkness and don the armor of light.

This seems fitting, especially after the tragic murder of Charlie Kirk on September 10, 2025. A metaphorical light was turned on—and it illuminated, perhaps, thousands of people behaving like… well, cockroaches, caught under the starkness of it all.

A Nation in Shadows

For many, this was the first real glimpse into a troubling reality. Before this, it was easy to dismiss the situation with comments like “It’s just a few troubled kids” or “just some fringe folks on social media.”

But now? We can see it more clearly. Like those pesky roaches, there are at least a few deeply troubled individuals lurking behind every headline. The disturbing response to Charlie Kirk’s murder made waves across the country.

Strangely enough, it didn’t catch me by surprise. For roughly five years, I’ve been hosting my show, “I’m Frustrated.” We talk a lot about the ‘cluster B’ syndrome in society.

So, what exactly is “Cluster B”? It’s a label given to a group of personality disorders often tied to manipulative and harmful behaviors. I recognized this in my own mother, who exhibited narcissism and borderline personality disorder. Her actions? They often left me reeling in guilt and confusion.

When I finally came to terms with her moral decline, I started noticing similar patterns within the political and cultural left.

Disturbing Trends

Both mainstream and fringe segments on the left exhibit characteristics associated with Cluster B disorders. There’s this mix of narcissism, emotional instability, and a shocking lack of conscience. It’s almost as if there’s a twisted joy in events like the murder of a man such as Charlie Kirk. The thought that somebody could just take a rifle and end a life in front of numerous spectators—it really darkens the heart.

These disorders often correlate with a troubling mindset, one lacking any real empathy for others. I guess we can point out that a degree of sadism seems to be simmering just below the surface in today’s discourse.

And it’s not limited to just the fringes. Public figures like a liberal podcaster known by the name “Fate” even suggested that Kirk deserved his fate—for voicing opinions that didn’t align with their views.

This is a reflection of a wider madness in our society.

Countless young people—particularly young women—took to platforms like TikTok, celebrating Kirk’s passing in a disturbingly gleeful manner. It’s almost as if there’s an element of confusion mixed with joy resonating in their actions, reminiscent of a modern-day cult.

A Grim Reality

And speaking of grim, has anyone else noted the alarming number of professionals—doctors, nurses, and pilots—who might support this mindset? If you haven’t yet, maybe you should start paying attention before it gets too late. This isn’t just a comedic exaggeration; if there’s a liberal in your circle, you might just find out firsthand what I mean.

More Than Just Politics

This doesn’t appear to be merely a political divide any longer. There’s never really been a time in American history quite like this—where there’s open enjoyment around political assassinations. Back in the day, differing candidates could have dinner together without fearing they might be that next target.

But today? If you were in their shoes, would you really feel safe at home?

We’re living in a national crisis.

This phenomenon isn’t a simple clash of ideas or beliefs. It’s more of an ongoing conflict between light and dark.

I realize I might be overstating things a bit. After years of questioning belief, I’m only just figuring out my own thoughts about faith. Growing up, even in a diluted cultural atmosphere, there were snippets of Christian morality that lingered. Today, it feels more like a psychological battleground.

Urgent Messages

This brings to mind some verses from St. Paul’s letter to the Romans: “The night is far gone; the day is at hand. So then, let us cast off the works of darkness and put on the armor of light.”

Charlie Kirk understood the critical nature of addressing these issues. Raised in an evangelical context, he initially sought to maintain his faith. But over time, he recognized how intricately intertwined his beliefs and his political endeavors were.

He was wonderfully human, after all. Dive into his available footage, and you’ll spot moments where his rhetoric wasn’t perfect, yet he still engaged in meaningful conversations, showcasing what many might see as “armor of light.”

This armor—his faith—empowered him to approach even the most antagonistic audiences with confidence. He wasn’t just fast-talking or slick in his presentation; he operated from a place of truth, which he believed was worth sharing.

In Memory of a Life

Ultimately, despite his goodwill and faith, he couldn’t escape the tragic end met at the hands of an assassin. Some labeled him a martyr, but the reality was he was a 31-year-old man with a family, facing uncertain threats daily.

Despite knowing the risks associated with his work, Kirk demonstrated remarkable courage. He had security details, yet no one could have anticipated that public expression could lead to such violence.

And now, as we process this, part of honoring Kirk’s legacy involves being cautious about the threats his death highlights and protecting our loved ones from these darker forces.

Following Kirk’s example, we must stand firm in advocating for the truth. We should strive to inspire others, encouraging those who might still be lost.

Yes, real evils exist in the world, but the true battle lies in avoiding or managing them. Each shocking act of violence coexists alongside countless others who are slowly being warped by insidious ideologies.

I hold out hope that those of us who wish to do good can guide them toward healing. As we move forward, let’s cast aside our darkness, much like Kirk did in his noble fight.

Let’s don the armor of light.