I don't really care about “really dark” TV shows or “screwed” movies.
They're supposed to rattle me or provoke me, but that's not the case. They just bored me. I'm not completely interested.
It appears that these stories are created by people who have never really reflected the deeper nature of life and tragedy.
In my 20s, I went through the typical stages of thinking shows and films where “pushing the boundaries” was interesting or at least worth watching. I don't remember when I grew up exactly from that stage, but at this point I can confidently say I'm completely out of nowhere. I don't care anymore about the dark, screwed, edgy, boundary pushing TV or movies.
How to get mad?
Don't get me wrong, I was not one of these people. But I didn't oppose it either.
I thought there might be a reason to dislike you, whether the show should push you, shock you or feel disgusted. Something more interesting was happening. It was preparing you for some kind of deeper truth or revelation that can only be understood in such a presentation by brutalizing your eyes and sensibilities.
There is logic to things, even if they may seem confused at first. Please wait. A story can only be told in this form, and meaning cannot be extracted without brutality. I was open to all that theory of it.
I've been trying to understand why I stopped being interested in this kind of thing. I can't really pinpoint the year it happened. I can't really understand the exact reason either.
Aging
For a while, I thought it was because I became a parent. That makes sense. You're always thinking about your kids, so you'll end up transpose the story and all of it into your thoughts about them, which will change your tastes. You don't want to see this trash anymore.
I thought that might be the case, but further reflecting it, I don't think so.
I think it happened when I was old.
Aging does not occur linearly. Yes, according to the US government and all other corporations on Earth, our official age changes according to the universally recognized system of days, weeks, months and years. And yes, it's all linear. But that's not the aging I'm talking about.
I'm talking about getting older and getting more mature. It's not just a number. We go for years without ageing, and then suddenly, we age the bundles for months. Something happens – sometimes something good, but it's a bad thing – we are drawn from the ringer, and when we come out on the other side, we feel like we are different people in many ways that we can't really put our fingers on. We've aged.
After aging a bit, I went through a few things that weren't exactly great, beat a bit here and there, realizing it was more fragile than I had previously thought.
The taste is better than the trick
My indifference to this style of media isn't just due to sentimentalism, but if that's fine, it's about taste.
As mentioned earlier, I originally thought that insanity was a way to be insanity and that brutalization of a message or question was necessary to convey the art. But the truth is that most of them are not actually art. It's not that thoughtful either.
But it seems largely thoughtful. Because it's really easy to produce in large quantities of today's gloomy and unstable video images. It's basically a trick.
Low brightness, strong contrast, minimal interaction, strings that cut down long code every few minutes. Everything about Yale mode. An obstructive, selfish, mentally ill and generally unthinkable nihilistic character. Detailed details that convey a “really dark” sensibility without a solution. You can crank it over and over again, and people can eat it.
It's all so obvious and heavy. It's very predictable and boring. A willingness to crude is not a necessary part to reveal richer insights into the human experience. It is a meaningless, bleaching form of slops that shake your brain and taste.
Dull and clear
It appears that these stories are created by people who have never really reflected the deeper nature of life and tragedy. Alternatively, they may have never developed subtle emotional sensibilities before, so the only way they have to portray “emotions” is the way they can imagine in the dull and obvious ways.
I think it will reach that bottom. A little aging has shown me a few things about myself and my life, and a little more sensitive and sensitive.
At this point we encounter such a dull, unnecessarily provocative eye-catching vision. That doesn't shock me. It doesn't cause me. They don't do anything they want to do.
It just irritates me. It bothers me. After hearing the string quartet playing Mozart, it feels like listening to a silly garage band.
