Ex-Goldman Sachs VP rips bank’s ‘man’s world’ culture: ‘cried in the bathroom’

A former Goldman Sachs vice president gave up her annual salary at the Wall Street giant two years ago to become a novelist because of a “man’s world” culture where female employees “don’t feel valued.” He said he quit his six-figure job.

Lindsay McMillan, who worked in the bank’s marketing department and was promoted to vice president there, said that after six years at Goldman, she was one of the few to give up a promising career because of her “feminine He wrote that this was because he felt the need to “keep his side hidden.” The women in her department.

She said her demanding schedule of 7am to 10pm every day, plus long hours on weekends, was dictated by “something imposed by male leaders”. According to her essay published in Business Insider:

“Under my desk was a pair of black pumps that I called ‘Hollywood heels,'” she wrote. “When I put it on every morning, I was expressing a thick-skinned character who thrives in a man’s world.”

Lindsay McMillan wrote an essay about her experience working at Goldman Sachs. Lindsey McMillan/Instagram

As the only woman on a team of 20 investors, Ms. McMillan writes, “To succeed, I had to emulate the male ways.”

“I wore pantsuits and suppressed my personality,” McMillan wrote, citing the recent exodus of high-ranking women from Goldman and allegations that female staffers suffered sexual pay discrimination and sexual harassment. He also mentioned a $215 million class action lawsuit settlement.

“I played golf, talked about soccer, and cried in a bathroom stall so no one would see me crying at my desk,” McMillan wrote.

According to her essay, when McMillan used an exclamation point in an email, she was told to stop.

“My original ideas were thwarted,” she writes.

When McMillan baked cookies for her coworkers and brought them to the office, she said she was told she should have “built a financial model instead of baking.”

In his essay, McMillan wrote that Goldman was a “boys-only” culture. Lindsay McMillan/X

McMillan wrote that after posting the poem on her Instagram account, she received “negative comments” from colleagues “about how emotional the poem was.”

Despite rising to the rank of vice president at age 28, McMillan writes, “I ended up burning out, not because of the job itself, but because of the parts of myself that I had to dull in the process.” .

“An internal balancing act forced me out,” she wrote.

Ms McMillan said “male leadership” dictated her grueling hours at the bank. Lindsay McMillan/X

The Post has reached out to MacMillan and Goldman Sachs for comment.

After Business Insider published the article on its website on Tuesday, Ms. McMillan wrote on LinkedIn that the magazine’s editors “added a sensationalist headline” to her essay “without my permission,” adding that the headline I wrote that it had a subtitle: “The ‘boys only’ culture drove me out.”

“Not only did I not write these words, I made it clear that the headline needed to be about celebrating women, not bashing men,” McMillan wrote on LinkedIn.

Mr. McMillan rose to become vice president of marketing at Goldman, but resigned two years ago. Lindsay McMillan/X

She accused Business Insider of “ignoring my opinions” and “discarding many of the headlines I sent them in favor of clickbait headlines that misrepresented the story.”

“It’s that simple: if our name is on the byline, you give us final approval of the headline,” she wrote.

“Otherwise, you’re just exploiting us.”

The Post has reached out to Business Insider for comment.

Since leaving the financial industry, Mr. McMillan has become a novelist, fulfilling a lifelong dream. Lindsay McMillan/Instagram

In November 2022, McMillan published another essay in Business Insider that appears to contradict some of the claims she recently posted.

In her essay Tuesday, McMillan claimed her male boss forced her to work a “7 a.m. to 10 p.m.” schedule.

But two years ago, she wrote that she had a “good work-life balance, which is rare on Wall Street” and that she was “only working about 50 hours a week.”

McMillan wrote that in 2022, he had no complaints about Goldman.

“Quitting Goldman would probably be easier if I lived up to the stereotype and was working 100-hour weeks feeling miserable,” McMillan wrote at the time, “but I wasn’t.”

Goldman has been plagued by an exodus of female executives in recent months. Reuters

“I never hated my job,” McMillan said, adding that she found the work “intellectually stimulating.”

She reveled in the fact that she “met some amazing mentors and friends while studying.”[ing] It tells the story of the business world from the best people.”

“I loved writing so much that I couldn’t justify continuing it as a hobby anymore.” Macmillan wrote at the time:

The newspaper asked Mr Macmillan for clarification.